Its been a while

Its been a while since i last post something because i really dont know what to write about. Nothing special or out of the ordinary happen so i guess there's nothing much to rant. All i can say is that the voices in my head came back once in a while. It was kinda irritating having to get through with it, because it constantly disturb me. I cant have a moment of peace with it trying to distract me or divert my attention to it.
I went to the doctor last week for follow up. He said that i can reduce my dosage of Risperdal(my medicine)to 4.5mg a day in 2weeks time. So i guess that's good news to me.

Its been 6months and i still hear voices...although not as much as it used to be but still i cant sleep or even sit properly when it hit me. All i can say is that i hope this illness will go away faster and that i can resume with my normal life without voices telling me what to do or what im doing. My mom kept asking me to do chanting and that it will go away even faster, but im too lazy for that. For now i can only hope that it doesnt come too often.

And for college...assignment datelines are pilling up and that i havent even started doing them yet. Im just plain lazy to start thing off. I need a boost from someone so that i can get it going. Everyday im just sitting at home doing nothing and watching reruns of FRIENDS. I've watch from Season 1 to Season 10 now...almost finish!! Thats how bored i am.

Euro 08 has arrived and i dont really have the mood to catch any of the match at all...i lost the appetite to watch a football match... i dont know why... maybe i'll catch one soon when the good teams are playing each other. As for now.. im just slacking at home shaking my balls off. And thats all for now... cheers!!

Dateline,dateline, dateline

Assignments dateline is near and I havent yet done most of it. There are several more for Photo Comm class and 1 for Desktop Publishing class. The reason I delay and delay and not doing it is because im so bad at it that it scares me to even try. This friday is the last day to send in all of the assignments. Its the last day.

The voices that haunt me came back to irritate me yesterday. I couldnt sleep as usual until 5.30am. It was kinda bad.. i cant imagine having to go through that when im working. As for class i can just skip it. If im working then i wont be able to skip it as i please and that would be a big problem for me. Not enough sleep makes me cranky and is definitely not good for the health either.

I've been drinking too much now... think i better stop drinking for a while. If i continue on drinking like i did the last few weeks, the medication probably wouldnt work on me anymore. I dont wanna risk that happening to me because the voices,tremors and the anxiety attack is way too scary and is obviously bad for me. I couldnt handle it without the medication.