Today I visited a friend of mine who has been bed/wheel chair ridden for 5 years now. Today is the first time i ever visited him in his house. WTF?
I did though visit him in the hospital when he first met with an accident which caused his paralyzed from the waist down. I know i know.... after 5 yrs? Why today?
But thats me... I wanted to visit him long time ago but laziness caught up to me. B4 that I was always delaying the visit.
Seeing him after 5yrs makes me wonder how fast time flies. I cant imagine so many years has passed and yet i'm still the same old me.
Nothing much to rant about, as it was just another boring Sunday. (SSDD) same shit different day!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
Saturday Night, yah right!
Its saturday night and im all homey all over again as i battle my 4months long schizophrenia illness. For those who has known me, they should for awhile now, know that i succumb to this mental illness. Its been a very long suffering 4months that i have endured and that i would say that i went through hell on earth with this illness still lingers around me.
With the help of medication I can now go through each day with minimal fuss. But still the "voices" in my head are still there disrupting my daily life. After a while you will know that i tend to rant about my "voices" very often as it is now a part of my life.
Almost 3 years of substance abuse such as ecstacy caught me up with schizophrenia and God knows the amount of pills i pop. and the damage done to my brain. One odd thing abut me is that although i wouldnt normally advice anyone to take ecstacy, but through out my 3 years experiencing life and its turmoil, i fucking enjoyed it, till its last drop. I had one of my best days, as i would call it my "heydays of substance abuse" .
As for now i can only reminiscing of how much pleasure i would get from abusing those street drugs again. My mind still lingers for those euphoria like feeling i hunger for more. The high life of night life is not the path for me anymore and the thought of taking such substance has already surpassed me. Thank God for that. Peace out !
With the help of medication I can now go through each day with minimal fuss. But still the "voices" in my head are still there disrupting my daily life. After a while you will know that i tend to rant about my "voices" very often as it is now a part of my life.
Almost 3 years of substance abuse such as ecstacy caught me up with schizophrenia and God knows the amount of pills i pop. and the damage done to my brain. One odd thing abut me is that although i wouldnt normally advice anyone to take ecstacy, but through out my 3 years experiencing life and its turmoil, i fucking enjoyed it, till its last drop. I had one of my best days, as i would call it my "heydays of substance abuse" .
As for now i can only reminiscing of how much pleasure i would get from abusing those street drugs again. My mind still lingers for those euphoria like feeling i hunger for more. The high life of night life is not the path for me anymore and the thought of taking such substance has already surpassed me. Thank God for that. Peace out !
Getting started
all right, after a long nag on I should actually start my own blog from my friend Deborah, I decided that the time is now. I should blog as I have too much time to spare during my days and nights of loneliness. Instead of just chatting away, i can now feel the euphoria of writing in my blog ranting about things that i like and doesn't like.
So it seems... i've come to the point where i stare at the computer screen of mine for several hours without doing anything talking to myself (yah! some imaginary Buddha is talking to me, beat that mofo!!)
Nothing much to say as Im going out now to help my friend get his girlfriend passport done, so im off for now. Im only doing this because deborah "bising" at me and into writing my own blog. Alright there you go my first blog entry is so lame and filled with emptiness. Thanks to you Deborah, now im one of youS people. (muahaha)
So it seems... i've come to the point where i stare at the computer screen of mine for several hours without doing anything talking to myself (yah! some imaginary Buddha is talking to me, beat that mofo!!)
Nothing much to say as Im going out now to help my friend get his girlfriend passport done, so im off for now. Im only doing this because deborah "bising" at me and into writing my own blog. Alright there you go my first blog entry is so lame and filled with emptiness. Thanks to you Deborah, now im one of youS people. (muahaha)
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