Its saturday night and im all homey all over again as i battle my 4months long schizophrenia illness. For those who has known me, they should for awhile now, know that i succumb to this mental illness. Its been a very long suffering 4months that i have endured and that i would say that i went through hell on earth with this illness still lingers around me.
With the help of medication I can now go through each day with minimal fuss. But still the "voices" in my head are still there disrupting my daily life. After a while you will know that i tend to rant about my "voices" very often as it is now a part of my life.
Almost 3 years of substance abuse such as ecstacy caught me up with schizophrenia and God knows the amount of pills i pop. and the damage done to my brain. One odd thing abut me is that although i wouldnt normally advice anyone to take ecstacy, but through out my 3 years experiencing life and its turmoil, i fucking enjoyed it, till its last drop. I had one of my best days, as i would call it my "heydays of substance abuse" .
As for now i can only reminiscing of how much pleasure i would get from abusing those street drugs again. My mind still lingers for those euphoria like feeling i hunger for more. The high life of night life is not the path for me anymore and the thought of taking such substance has already surpassed me. Thank God for that. Peace out !
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3 comments:
u celaka mia budak.....nvr regret!! if i were ur mom i'd kicked u to pacific ocean d lor!! haha....whack u till u bruises everywhere...even can disowned u d..nvr regret!!!
but one good thing la u now dun dare to take anymore haha
ush, dun eat drugs liao my fren... :) go healthy... ush ush...
haha i stop everything already
now a good boy!
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